It's a promise to yourself. It's not a threat to other people.
I had me scheduled first. Here's what that one sentence protects.
In June we made the calendar into something that holds you. This week I want to show you what the calendar actually is. It’s a boundary. And most women don’t use it that way.
Here is a small story. I had a nail appointment that conflicted with a playdate. And when my nail girl had nothing else available for weeks, I had to make a call. I kept my appointment over the playdate.
I want to tell you exactly why, because the reason matters more than the choice. I had me scheduled first. It was already on the calendar. And I don’t always want to be the woman who says everybody else matters more.
That is where I use the calendar as the boundary. Not as a wish list. Not as a suggestion. As the actual line. I had it on there first, so it holds (this is the same promise I wrote about in It’s Not Vanity. It’s a Promise You Keep to Yourself.).
Now, the part that women struggle with most. They hear “I kept my appointment over the playdate” and they brace, like it’s selfish. So let me give you the reframe that changes it. It’s a promise to yourself. It’s not a threat to other people. Keeping the thing on your calendar is not an act of aggression against everyone else. It is an act of loyalty to you.
I see Nancy every week for a massage. And I don’t think of it as pampering. I think of it as a promise to myself to relieve the stress and trauma stored in my body. The promise is not the one massage. The promise is that I show up. Every week. You are showing up every week for yourself. That is the whole thing.
And I want to be precise about what kind of self-care this is, because the internet has confused it. This is the self-care that isn’t laying in the sun or getting your nails done. This is the talking about hard things. The making changes. The paying of bills. The getting healthy. The keeping of appointments with yourself that nobody claps for.
If you have been canceling on yourself for months, you are exactly who I write this free letter for. I’ll keep showing up in your inbox every Tuesday while you practice showing up for you.
Here is what happens when the appointment is already on the calendar. Canceling it stops being logistics. It becomes a choice. A choice to break a promise to yourself. And once you feel that, you protect your own time differently. You stop being the first thing that gets moved.
So this week, look at your calendar and find the thing that is for you. Then treat it like you scheduled yourself first. Because the truest sentence I can give you is this. It is a promise to yourself. It is not a threat to anyone.
If this is the line that hit you, restack it with that one line. I want to see which one lands the hardest.
Pivot Prompt: What is the one promise on your calendar you are protecting this week? Hit reply with one word.
Last week we learned to stop solving the whole plate and just take one input off. If you missed it, read You’re Not Drowning. You’re Stacked.
For anyone else who keeps canceling on herself: read The Next Appointment Is Already on the Calendar
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